Category Archives: Little Obsession

Epiphany (and giveaway winner)

It happens while I’m driving, taking a shower or walking – every darn time I don’t have a pen and piece of paper handy – and it always surprises me with a bucket of ideas with not enough brains to hold them all in. Oh yes, when Epiphany strikes, you better be ready cause she’s not a frequent visitor, not in my neck of the woods, anyway.

This time, it was so unexpected, I almost confused Her with the hallucinogenic side effects from standing so close to potheads in the crowd of an Arcade Fire concert. There I was, enjoying Power Out, when She hit me right in the head.

I’ve been working on this script-turned-novel for a while, now: my own version of Swan Lake, the ballet by Tchaïkovsky. I’ve been obsessed with it ever since I first started taking classical ballet, and it got me into finals at screenwriting contests, but I never really LOVED it – not like I do Rebel, I never connected as much with it. So what’s wrong with it?

I’m not a fan of magic and I hate prince/princess stories, that’s what. My carefully faithful adaptation was full of it, as was my novel’s first draft – but how to change such a big part of the story? How to make it mine without taking out the humans turning into birds and the doomed love story?

Well, thanks to a combination of strong whiffs of marijuana, good music and my old gal Epiphany, I have found it. Swan Lake is about to become Wild Swan, a super-duper dark YA fantasy that deals with unrequited love, a powerful druglord, and learning to fly.

The lesson in this? It hits you when you think you’ll never find a solution and you’re sure to fail.

Congrats to Cherie who won my Tattered Souls V2 copy!!


Minions of Misery Award

My Gothsis Angela Addams and I decided to come up with a Goth award of our own (with the help of many Twitter friends, I should say), so here I present to you: the Minions of Misery Award.

The recipient of this distinction shall admit one dark secret, recommend one dark book and suggest one dark film to their readers—and pass on the MoMA to three deserving bloggers who appreciate a good dose of doom and gloom.

As a co-founder of this prestigious gift, here are my answers:

Dark Secret. I don’t want children because I think the world is rotten and people are pigs. I believe I’ll see WWIII before I die and could never rest in peace knowing my mini-me(s?) out there would be fighting for his/her/their/its life. It’s a shame, I love (well-behaved, cute and intelligent) kids and would have been a great mom.

Dark Film. Jane Eyre (1996). So gothic and creepy and moody, a small part of me dies every time I watch it – which is at least twice a year. Charlotte Gainsbourg and William Hurt are such brilliant actors, they bring to life the dark curse that is true love.

Dark Book. White Noise by Dan Delillo. Only recently have I been made aware of this writer’s dark prose and even darker mind. We share a lot, Delillo and I: We believe the world will end soon and there’s nothing we can do about it; whatever we do, we are doomed by those who surround us; and our society is built on crap.

And here are my nominees for the Minions of Misery Award, good friends and great Goths: Colin F Barnes , Imran Siddiq , and Aheïla


My love of bookstores

Used and abused, shiny and new, accumulating dust in an old Victorian basement or neatly packed in rows in a glass building downtown—whatever, I don’t care, I just want to read any books that make me feel, that trigger something other than boredom. For hours, stuck between the science fiction, horror, lit, fantasy and young adult sections, my hands and eyes can’t move fast enough. It’s like a drug, something that has become a part of me and won’t let go: I need books and always more books.

Stories, it’s all about who does what and when. What happens, what the characters learn, what we learn about ourselves through them. Entertaining, yes, but it’s so much more personal than that. I become friends and foes with some of these people the writers have created. I hate when something bad lurks around the corner and relish a good fight scene where the villain gets it in the nuts. I become involved with the characters, their stories become mine, for the length of a book. And if I’m really lucky, it stimulates ideas for a new story—hint, hint, Let the Right One In by John Ajvide Lindqvist inspired the character Liriel in my novelette Misery of Me, published in Tattered Souls Volume 2 by The Cutting Block Press, available on Amazon.com August 1st.

I even travel across the border for good, used books, but sadly, I’ll be looking for a new pusher because the one I love, the Corner-Stone Bookshop in Plattsburgh, NY, is shutting down. Sad face, broken heart.

I also go to this huge bookstore near my home to feast on sales, tables of them, luring me in, tantalizing my want for distraction and, somehow, education. And I always give in, I have no power against a glossy hardcover or bendy paperback: I am that weak. When my stash starts to thin out, I know the time is coming to make a little trip to my ‘medicine’ supplier.

Whenever I open the door of a bookstore, I feel it in my veins: the possibility of reading something great, something that will change my view on things, which will leave a mark for a few days to a few years. If not forever.