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Kelly Green

I found an old photograph at this quaint little antique shop I often visit. Obviously, it inspired me something best served creepy…meet Kelly Green, my latest #fridayflash.

Kelly Green

Foam bubbled through her red strands, hair tangled with seaweed and sand clusters. The shredded remains of her dress rolled with the crashing waves. Caught in a fishing net, she faced the abyss of the sea, flesh bloated and skin a pale shade of green.

Coastal town fishermen finding the body of Miss Green. ''That's our Kelly.''

‘‘She the girl?’’ asked the fisherman holding his net full of fish and a dead body. ‘‘She the one?’’

‘‘Who’d you want her to be? Sure it’s her.’’ Their voices lost in the seagulls above and the deadly waters below. Her corpse danced as the net neared the shore.

Another fisherman waited, boots deep in the tide. ‘‘Yep, it’s her all right. That’s our Kelly.’’ Guilt rose in the seamen’s chests, remembering her atop the white cliffs. Not the first or the last they hadn’t stopped from jumping.

*

‘‘Think it’s pretty, Mamma?’’ Kelly twirled in her dress made specially for the occasion. A sharp shade of green, her favorite. ‘‘Think I’ll be the prettiest?’’ She tilted her head at the mirror, scrutinizing the details by the hem: sparkling gems with embroidery. She recognized her mother’s craft, the only soul in the village with enough patience and skill.

‘‘Don’t you let it go to your head, girl. Don’t want town folks to think you’re vain.’’ Mamma straightened Kelly before kneeling to mend the bad pleat hidden by the sash.

The Fishwives sat by the fire, carefully watching Kelly’s every move, listening to every word. ‘‘I wonder, Mamma…’’ Barely fourteen and dreaming of Jacob on his boat, sweat mixed with seawater. ‘‘I wonder if anyone will want to dance with me but miss their chance. Too shy or afraid to ask me or something.’’ Jacob’s smile at last year’s harvest ball brought hers back. Strong, he’d make a fine husband.

‘‘You can’t go on living with ifs and maybes, Kelly.’’ Mamma’s head bowed to the needle and thread jabbing the fabric, and Kelly noticed the gray mixed with red. Her mother’s hair used to be like hers, before Kelly got picked.

*

The ballots rustled in the wind, the Masson jar half-filled with names. The First Fishwife cleared her throat and read the chosen piece of paper.

‘‘Kelly,’’ she read as the village of four hundred gasped. ‘‘Kelly Green.’’

Kelly approached the altar with her head held high, knowing once She chose you, you obeyed. Mamma cried a little, probably because her days would be lonesome with Dad and Timmy out fishing.

‘‘A proud, proud day to secure the fate of so many,’’ the First Fishwife proclaimed as she regained control of the small crowd. ‘‘God will be happy for such a gift and will give us plenty for the year to come.’’

Kelly’s future lay with the sea, her soul to melt with the waves and her voice to crash on the shore, shouting her name so no one would forget her sacrifice.


The Versatile Blogger Award

I have been very lucky to meet amazing people on the Kelley Armstrong forum, and two guys from that very special group have given me this award. It’s my first time winning such a thing, so let me gush a little.

Ken McDaniel always answers my military questions with passion and pride; Gareth Wilson amazes me not only for reading so many books but for making me want to read them all too. Their blogs are time well spent.

Now, with my crown and scepter in hand, here are 7 things you probably don’t know about me…

1) During my film studies, which were spread over a 10 year period, from Cegep (a two year pre-university system only found in the province of Quebec) to my Master’s, I didn’t read one single novel, only those part of school requirements. I was immersed in films, making them and watching them. And since then, I’ve become a book junkie for all that time wasted.

2) I’m a vegetarian who wishes to be vegan, but my love of butter, cheese and ice cream prevents me from fulfilling my dream of saving as many animals as possible. I’ve sold my leather handbags and sworn off bacon, but milk products such as those listed above give me one more reason to live. Sorry, cows.

3) I’m a blusher, therefore I redden at cute guys and public comments aimed at me—and I can’t hide because I’m so tall. Such is my world.

4) I Am Earlybird. I eat early and go to bed early. Probably has to do with the fact that my dreams are better than real life. I’ve always been like that, especially in the summer – I love closing my eyes on the lighted sky.

My friend Caroz got starstrucked, which explains the blurry quality...

5) I have this disease called The Backstage Syndrome. The Cure, Nine Inch Nails, Lalala Human Steps have been subject to my trespassing into the green room and have suffered minor attacks. Edouard Lock refused my marriage proposal with a polite bow, Trent Reznor cleverly stayed away from me at the Brixton Academy, but Robert Smith and Simon Gallup lived the Anne Experience as they both—very patiently—talked to me at Curiosa in 2004.

6) I hate flying and must take drugs at take off. I have this fear of being kept in a small-ish space with hundreds of people while having this great big nothing surround us. Yes, I am paradoxal. Could you pass the Xanax, please?

7) I’ve been writing horror stories for a while. I love horror movies, creepy music, gothic bands and scary books—but I faint at the sight of real blood. I’ll never be a vampire but could be the first anorexic zombie, if the apocalypse ever strikes.

This award keeps on giving! My two nominees are…

Anita Grace Howard is a writer with whom I share writing muses. Enjoy her blog, it’s as gorgeous as her writing.

Annie Neugebauer is a writer with an amazing blog, her poems make me envious of her great talent.

Enjoy, ladies!


Xeric

I am no poet and yet, here’s one highly influenced by this oil painting by Ruppert Lindemann. Happy #FridayFlash everyone!

                                  Xeric

He stands by the road, hands pleading to the sun

He prays for the rain to come and drown him

Kills his sorrow, chokes his heart, dissolves his soul.

 

The cracked ground will engulf him, he waits.

The vultures will pick at his face and beak out his eyes, he prays.

copyright Ruppert Lindemann

The sun will burn him to oblivion, he cries.

 

The day slips away and leaves him stranded

With nothing: no blade, no gun, no poison

And this thirst to die that never ends.


Seldom

I don’t know why, never really stopped to think about it since I guess the outcome would depress me, but I feel this rush when I see my name in print at the back of an anthology or in a magazine editorial. Pretty much like at the end of my films, where I signed this short moment in time as my own. My words, my worlds.

I first thought of Misery of Me about a year and a half ago. I was reading another vampire book (a little obsession of mine called Let the Right One In by stellar author John Ajvide Lindqvist) when I got this idea for a heroine addict vampire falling for her suicidal blood bank. Catchy, right?

I checked out Duotrope (because who doesn’t, really?) and noticed Cutting Block Press actually wanted horror novelettes – a rare thing – they paid a fair rate, but asked specifically for no vampires… unless something different was explored. Well, I started to write down this story of need and want, of sadness and despair. Added a few dark twists and gloomy turns and sent it to my beta-friend.

Her favorite, by far. Strange, since we’d all ODed on fangs by this point. So after a few tweaks, off to them Texans. Couple months later, I received this email full of praise from the editor himself. Not only did I fall in love with this stranger who liked Misery, but little did I know he would provide me with the best editing experience I’ve ever had. Kind and sometimes heartless, encouraging and sweet and motivating—love at first word.

Does it get better? It does. I get to hold this anthology of amazing stories by creative writers, and my name is printed on its back. It travelled from my mind unto here, something tangible I can touch. I’m so proud of the anthology, so happy to be a part of it. This is how I get paid to write everyday, this feeling right here.


Hypnophobia

Here is this week’s #FridayFlash, a little something I wrote three years ago that needed refreshing. Enjoy, good people.

Hypnophobia

Today’s your lucky day: you get to choose between your mother and your father. Either you live with the first, who never lets you go out with smelly socks and a stubbled chin; or the other, who doesn’t care enough to look at your report card and cheated on your mother for the past five years. They’re getting a divorce, messing up your life for these last few months until graduation, so who do you choose? Him, of course.

You move into his crappy apartment: third floor, constant baby screams on the other side of the wall, some wife beater across your landing, and this noise above your room at night. No wonder your father lets you have it, it’s impossible to sleep with all the shuffling and dragging and voices coming from the ceiling. Then again, no one will say anything if you bring girls to spend the night and smoke with your window open, so you’re golden.

Until dark circles ring your eyes. Your mother thinks that jackass excuse for a father isn’t feeding you well, that he’s neglecting you and nothing good will come out of living with him. As she wipes spaghetti sauce off your cheek—the sole reason you’re visiting on a Saturday night—she invites you to come back. Begs, really. No hard feelings, she wants you to live with her. You’re doing well, you lie, and get out before she says you’re worse than him.

One night, you actually believe it’ll be fine, you’ll catch up on lost sleep—the shits living above aren’t home. You relax, your thoughts drift into dreams, toasty in bed… WHAM! It shakes your walls, muted voices rank up into shouts. BANG! A heavy drag, left and right, right and left. Heavy feet, BOOM! BOOM! BOOM! right above your head, sheet-rock and wood beams separating you from chaos.

Enough, you think, where’s my baseball bat? You knock the butt to the ceiling, afraid to man up, at first. They don’t stop, their voices like whispers slitting the walls and tickling your ears. So you bang on the ceiling some more, half-hallucinating their raspy breaths down your neck. But it picks up, driving you mad, the shouting so close, their voices in your face. Through a haze of murderous intent, your deep breath comes out in a yawn. The couch will do.

On a rare morning appearance, your father asks you why you’re sleeping in here instead of your bed. He asks the heavens why he bothered leaving you the bigger room if you prefer this stinky rathole too small for his plasma screen. You say it’s because of the people in 4D, they just won’t stop moving around at night. He apologizes, the place is noisy. You say, damn right. After a week of whines, he talks to the landlord. Now he calls you crazy as you follow him down the dingy corridor.

Empty, the place hasn’t been lived in for over five years. Everybody moves out after a month, the landlord says with a funny look. He’s not the only one checking you up and down. The back of your neck prickles, your heart thump-thumps, a cold embrace clutches your chest. You hold onto the doorframe, something pricks your fingers. Stuck under the doorknob latch, the picture of this man waits for you to squeeze it free. Yes, the picture waits for you, it’s written all over your bones. And tonight, the noise comes from inside your apartment.


Heather

Here is my #fridayflash debut with a stunning photograph by Amy Goodwyn.

Heather

I don’t know what makes them different, what makes them Them and us Us. But I know that they are different, most of Us do. With one look, just one, I can tell. Maybe it’s the spark in our eyes that we have and they don’t? They walk the same, talk the same, but they’re as far from human as I am from whatever they are.

Nothing like in the movies. There wasn’t any huge spaceship or bright lights or weird signs burnt in corn fields. They just came, out of nowhere, and they stayed, whether we wanted them to or not. No one died, no one was murdered. The population just grew.

People noticed in little towns at first: a thousand became two thousand. And in the big cities, the traffic jams and rush hours became so intense, people just stopped going to work, thinking the government would do something if the economy went down again. But no, the President and his people, did absolutely nothing. But the ones who came from space did. They took our place, they took our jobs, they took our lives. And then, people, real people from Earth, got pissed off. And things started to move, to happen for Us.

Me and Cam drive back from one of those secret meetings that only real people can attend. We’re pumped, jacked up about how we’ve been duped, how NASA brings weapons to kill aliens on space shuttles ‘just in case’ but never tells the population. How we’ll win this invisible war.

Then, we see her.

She stands by the road, waiting for a ride, almost innocent. Tall and lean, she looks like any twenty year old girl I’ve ever known, but she isn’t. One of Them. She smiles when we stop, first at me then her eyes shift to Cam behind the wheel. It takes a second, just an instant, and we know what we’ll do. Our own rebellion, mine and Cam’s. Together.

She gets in the back, thanks us for our kindness, and we drive off. She talks about how where she’s from, everyone is always helping each other. We say nothing, we can’t exchange a word with her. Her voice, distorted, unnatural. Unnatural, that’s it. Not Us, Them.

I’ve never thought about Heaven and Hell until they came. If we’re good and do as we’re told, we go to Heaven. If we’re bad and evil, we go to Hell. Do they get buried or smoked into ashes? Do they even have souls?

When Cam drives through the entrance to the underground parking garage, she suddenly stops talking. Her voice freezes in her throat, her breath catches in the air. She knows what we’re going to do.

She doesn’t move, doesn’t flee. She accepts it. How very inhuman of her.

I know Cam has a gun in the glove compartment, someone gave it to him for what we’re about to do. It’s charged and ready for to go. But where do you kill someone who isn’t like you?

Cam drives deeper underground until no one’s around. We’re all alone, the three of us. The radio’s gone static, the noise unbearable. I switch it off, annoyed, fingers sweaty.

Cam parks the car in the darkest corner. I look in the rear view mirror and watch her. She stares back at me with her glassy eyes, follows me out of the car and waits, docile. Cam points the gun to the wall, so she moves closer to the wall. And then, it happens.

My heart gives a twinge, my breathing is too fast, my eyes go from the girl to Cam. He feels the same, I can see it by the way he studies the concrete at his feet.

Do it, he says with his eyes, giving me the gun with the barrel pointed down. Coward.

I think that maybe holding the cold steel, the ever powerful object, would make me feel better, feel human. It doesn’t. It’s heavy, and my hands shake under the weight.

I’ve never done it before—I never thought I would. Take a life, decide the fate of someone other than myself, take away something that isn’t mine. And yet, this girl deserves it. She took something that wasn’t hers, she invaded an entire planet. My hometown, not hers.

I look through the sight of the gun, even though she’s standing a few feet away from me. This is too raw, too real. I point further down the wall, making her turn around, and she faces it, waiting for the final blow.

I know we have to do it, not just for ourselves, but for mankind. We have to do it as a gesture, as a protest, as a way of getting ourselves heard.

Blurry Girl by Amy Goodwin

Dread, the end of it all. An urge to stay alive, the instinct of being, to dream, to take another breath. To fight, to stand, to believe. Do they feel? I don’t think so.

“Heather? I don’t think we should…”

 

I shoot her, hoping to end the nightmare. The body falls, Cam cries, and I smile.


Off day

It’s weird how my writing brain works. Some mornings, I don’t feel like putting a single word down on the page but as soon as I start, I can’t stop: the sentences flow, the ideas keep getting better, the story progresses and I even find some fantastic twists. And then, there’re mornings where I know where the story is heading, and I’m so excited to start—until I stare at a blank page and the words are stuck in my head. Won’t come out, or when they do, well… less than stellar, let’s say.

So what to do? Some think you have to bust through and keep writing (even if it might be shit) and others say to leave it be and come back another time: in ten minutes, ten hours, ten days. But then, what about the guilt? You know, when you keep thinking so many people dream about being able to write all day, I get to do it but here I am, stuck. Ten or twelve hours of writing time lost forever because of some stupid little bug in my head.

What I think? We all deserve an off day and shouldn’t feel bad about taking a break. I often find that if I get out of the house and go somewhere busy, I can think easier about why my story isn’t taking the shape I want it to and brainstorm better surrounded by strangers. No, not WITH them, but hearing different accents, seeing different faces and having a change of scenery always brings new life into my writing. Oh, and my brain thanks me for it the next time I pick up a pen.

 

This post was written at the Thai Express restaurant while developing Evoly, my MC for Land in Abyss.


Dreamland and Nightmaretown

My best characters ever, my most original stories and clever plots, my unique world re-imaginings and crazy schemes, all come from my dreams. Does it lessen my quality as a writer? Can’t I find something interesting to say on my own? Do I need to dream a life that isn’t mine to write about it?

My dreams happen in my head through my subconscious flux – so I’m not less of a writer, more of an opportunist storyteller. How could I come up, on my own, with Calif the Scavenger’s semi-scary, semi-sexy smile? And how about Evoly, a girl conflicted between being Human and Goyle on her first day in Syrana, this Land in Abyss? The journalists’ implication in Rebel’s controlled society; waking up naked and amnesiac in a bathroom in Foresees; We Left at Night’s terror of leaving home and everything else behind.

Instead of letting my dreams go into oblivion and forgetting about those really good ideas, I grab onto them, shape them into stories, and make the best of my overworked imagination.

So go on, dream about nightmares.